Sieze This Day

Seize this day
Live it up
Today's opportunities
May be lost in time
Before you realize
The sun will have fallen
And this day will be swallowed
By the endless abyss
The abyss that has no bottom
The abyss that is time

-Ari Rabinowitz

Stubborn

(to the tune of the chorus of jingle bells)

All alone by myself
I wanted to stay
they did not understand me
I wished they'd go away.

All alone by myself
I wanted to stay
they did not understand me
I wished they'd go away.

-Ari R.

Delusional

(A song to the tune of Poetic Tragedy by the Used)
Original Song

He does not have a problem, as they say
As far as he knows, he's just like any other teen
A bunch of advice, for him to ignore
Maybe he should run away, to where he can't be seen

An addict, he's panicked
He's so scared of losing his love
He gave ears to, no one
And all that he was is just delusional

So he tries to prove that he has not a problem
But he fails and downs a bottle of DXM

Then in fear of, treatment
he desperately begs his parents
"there's no point for, me to go there,
Please let me stay I'll make it up to you"

He feels ashamed
His life shattered, he's ashamed
He feels ashamed
I felt

Then on that, day he ran
And told his friends
Then he yelled, "WHY GOD? WHY ME?"

In fear of treatment
He desperately begs his parents
"There's no point for, me to go there,
Please let me stay I'll make it up to you"

-Ari Rabinowitz

The Avenger

An amiable child
He thought it abysmal
To accede to acerbate the lonely girl
Her face achromatic
He thought it an axiom
To show his allegiance to her
So he abominated the other children
The ones who abdicated the bullies of the previous year

-Ari R.

The Old Timer

The glow of happiness emanates from his core
It is so surreal, how did he overcome the battle?
The battle of temptation that I am still fighting
I want to know what his success tastes like

He knows what I’m feeling because he has been here
He has gone through the cravings and had the dreams
I want to have experience like he does
I want to be able to help myself by helping others

But I have a long way to go
I have to work hard at life and make amends to those I have harmed
Then I will free myself from the weight of my guilt
The weight that almost drowned me

But it won’t be easy
I have to surrender my will for God’s
I have to ignore the monster begging for consumption day after day
Then I will smell a hint of the sweetness that is a new beginning

When all is said and done
I can start to feel on another level
On his level

-Ari Rabinowitz

Separated

I’m looking at this photograph
And I remember blackouts and hangovers
But also pointless car rides and irrational schemes
Their goofy grins make me smile

Separated over time
I miss these two great friends of mine
Uncertain of when I’ll see them again
My smile slowly drops to a frown

We each took a different path
One followed Judaism
One followed drugs
One followed recovery

I hope the day will come
For us to reunite
And we wont manipulate one another
Or alter our state of mind
We’ll just enjoy the company of each other

-Ari R.

Yehuda Kramer. "Sean &Efy." Photograph. 28 March 2009.

My Life

So much depends
upon

Friends and family
Who

Are always
there

To give you
Hope.

-Ari Rabinowitz